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Explore, Commit, Emerge

Explore Commit Emerge
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“We shall not cease from explo­ration
And the end of all our explor­ing
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time.”

~ T.S. Eliot

What are You Exploring?

Two months ago and it just sort of hit me.

Why am I doing this?  

That was the ques­tion I asked myself…I asked, and didn’t have an answer.  Well…not an answer that really felt “right”.

On the sur­face, it sure looked like every­thing was good and fine. {with every­thing in my life}  On the surface…until I looked a bit deeper. 

Have you ever had that feel­ing like you’ve been the “ham­ster on the wheel”, just going in circles…except, for why?  {Why do you do the things you do?}  Or, for me:  why was I doing the things I did?  And when I paused long enough to ask myself that question…I just didn’t have a good answer for the why

We all have amaz­ing gifts we bring to this world.  You.  Me.  Everyone. 

Have we become like the ham­ster, though?  Are our lives like the ham­ster wheel, as we blindly spin through our day…and then start it all over again? 

…and on the sur­face it all looks good and wonderful…

That makes me think about the image we project, is it our true image? 

Or do we cre­ate safety zones.  Safety zones such as our job, our fam­ily, our hob­bies, our habits.  Safety zones that give us that sur­face look of good and fine?  Safety zones that buffer our true image?  Is there some­thing deeper beyond these safety zones, though? 

{Are there parts of you that feel vul­ner­a­ble?  Is there a zone that feels unsure?  Do you some­times won­der why…why you’re doing what you do?}

Back to these last cou­ple of months for me…(it seems like I am eas­ily side­tracked…)  A time to explore the “why” behind all that I do, all that I am.

A time to go past that safety zone (the one of career, fam­ily, this site…).

…a time to go deeper, a time to lis­ten, a time to be…

Some­times, per­haps, that has to be a very soli­tary jour­ney.   Not a time to be an open book…a time to open the book.  Not a time to lay it all on the line…a time to really see the line.  Not a time to bare the soul…a time to look into soul, in all its nakedness.

And so it has been.

The Com­mit­ment

I don’t even remem­ber now, what it was that trig­gered the thought…the thought of tak­ing this blog­ging sab­bat­i­cal I’ve been on.  I’ve decided it doesn’t mat­ter, though.  What’s mat­tered is what this time has meant.  What’s mat­tered is the com­mit­ment I made to do this, because it just “felt right”.  You know that “voice within”…your intu­ition, gut feel­ing, inner vibe, sixth sense..  We all have this (now, whether we are lis­ten­ing or not…that’s another story). 

It felt, in a way, like I was aban­don­ing every­thing I had cre­ated here in this space.  {have you ever felt like you’re aban­don­ing some­thing deeply mean­ing­ful to you?}

That voice though, when I really lis­tened, was speak­ing very clearly.  Was speak­ing very clearly to me.

And so, a com­mit­ment to pause.

More than just a com­mit­ment to pause, though — this was a com­mit­ment to me, to be still and listen.

Might it feel vul­ner­a­ble? {yes}

Might it take me out of the safety zones I por­trayed? {yes}

Might I sway off course from my own per­sonal com­mit­ment? {yes}

Might it all be so worth it, all that would come from this com­mit­ment to me?  {a resound­ing yes}

These past many weeks have been all of this. 

  • I’ve ques­tioned if I really know my pur­pose here (both here in this space, and for my time here on earth). 
  • I’ve ques­tioned how much it mat­ters that I know this. 
  • I’ve ques­tioned if I’m liv­ing fully and authen­ti­cally to words which hold deep mean­ing for me:

“To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intel­li­gent peo­ple and the affec­tion of chil­dren … to leave the world a bet­ter place … to know even one life has breathed eas­ier because you have lived.  This is to have suc­ceeded.” ~ Ralph Waldo Emer­son

  • I’ve ques­tioned what it means to be vulnerable. 
  • I’ve ques­tioned the why of all that I do. 
  • I’ve ques­tioned what holds me back from shin­ing my own light.

And I’ve com­mit­ted to liv­ing.  Living…in the full sense of that word, and all it brings with it.

The Emerg­ing

So today I return to this space…and every­thing is the same, and every­thing is different.

The emerg­ing will con­tinue (as per­haps, on some level, it does for all of us).  For me, this emerg­ing is with deeper clar­ity and purpose.

Today, I choose to con­tinue to emerge…emerge not just on the sur­face, but from all parts of me.   And this space will con­tinue to evolve as this new unfold­ing continues.

How about you?  How do you choose to emerge?

journey toward your true peak
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Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less trav­eled by,
And that has made all the difference.

~ Robert Frost

May our jour­ney together here con­tinue to enlighten all of us…

Lance writes sto­ries from his heart, aim­ing to inspire and moti­vate, as you align more fully with YOUR true peak. When he’s not here, you can find him hang­ing out with his fam­ily, rid­ing a bike, or just gen­er­ally act­ing goofy.   Sign up for the Thoughts from the Tree­house newslet­ter and get addi­tional inspi­ra­tion in your email inbox!
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Comments

  1. Evita says:

    Hi Lance

    It is won­der­ful to see you back :) Wel­come, wel­come :)

    Oh Lance, yes, you asked some fan­tas­tic ques­tions and at the end of it all I hear two words: con­scious­ness and pres­ence. Are we doing all that we do from a state of pres­ence? From a state of con­scious­ness? If not, I invite us to get off that ham­ster wheel and look deeper within.

    In this day and age, at this time of this beau­ti­ful awak­en­ing for so many on our planet, I don’t think we can afford to do things aim­less any­more, where every­thing looks great on the sur­face but inside we are miss­ing some­thing, aching for some­thing, need­ing some­thing. And it is not that we can­not afford this for oth­ers, or soci­ety, but for our­selves. Too many of us today are done with the games, done with the insan­i­ties, done with uncon­scious ways of liv­ing, sim­ply going from one habit, one belief, one tra­di­tion to another, just because this is how it has always been done.

    I appre­ci­ate so much your space and your cur­rent state because it is hon­est and authen­tic. May this jour­ney con­tinue to bring even more of all of that, but most impor­tantly, even more con­scious pres­ence.
    Evita´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Book Review– Heal­ing Through the Akashic RecordsMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Evita,
      Thank YOU!! It’s great to be back!

      Mmmm…love how you have summed this all up with two very mean­ing­ful words: con­scious­ness and pres­ence. Our life IS hap­pen­ing — for each of us. How fully present we are of this, though, is up to us. It’s a choice we each must choose…

      The awak­en­ing that is happening…what a won­der­ful thing this is, both to expe­ri­ence, and to be here in this time and place.

      Evita, know that your pres­ence here always brings deeper insight and thought…and what a beau­ti­ful gift that is which you share.

  2. Shiny Jill says:

    I returned today after a break from my blog as well. I didn’t plan to be gone, I just had some explor­ing of my own to do. Isn’t it won­der­ful to be able to come back to a place where you know you can be real. Our posts have some sim­i­lar­i­ties. I too have returned with deeper clar­ity and pur­pose. I’m really glad to be on this jour­ney with you. Thank you for being here.
    Shiny Jill´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..I am that personMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Jill,
      I was just over to read your very mean­ing­ful and touch­ing post. And it feels very much like we’re both step­ping back here into these spaces with deeper clar­ity and purpose.

      And, Jill, you are an amaz­ing per­son. There’s just this sense of peace I feel when­ever I read your words (here, or on your site).

      …this jour­ney that we both travel…it is won­der­ful to be on this together…

  3. Hi Fancy Lancey pants! :)

    Blue Bunny and I missed you a lot, but you are ever in our hearts of course. I feel that a friend of Lance’s stays for life, and that says much about you.

    A time or two ear­lier on I asked myself why I was blog­ging, but as friend­ships con­tin­ued to grow and strengthen I real­ized that was enough, and I learned to trust cre­ativ­ity would con­tinue to unfold and knows no end.

    Me and emerg­ing? Con­tin­u­ing to use my gifts to bring songs and maybe a bit of fun now and then to the world. I’m in a good spot now, after a cou­ple months of lessons learned with my lat­est project. Feel­ing con­tent, and let­ting things be how they want to.

    whoooohooooo!!

    xoxo
    Jan­nie Funster´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..On Poetry In MaineMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Jan­nie Ban­nanie!!
      I’ve missed you guys too (and Kelly and Jimmy too!).

      The friend­ships we can develop…they are truly spe­cial. And to think, we can do this with­out even meet­ing someone…get to know them so, so well. (it makes meet­ing in per­son pretty spe­cial when it happens)

      Con­tinue singing, dear friend. And being goofy. And hav­ing fun. And lov­ing your family.

      Your friend­ship is spe­cial and wonderful…and ALWAYS will be.

      From Wis­con­sin to you,
      Lance
      xxoo

  4. Henway says:

    I’m start­ing to do this ques­tion­ing of my pur­pose myself these days.. it’s not easy, but I think I am get­ting closer to find­ing it. It’s to share my gifts with the rest of the world in all ways pos­si­ble.
    Henway´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..iPage ReviewMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Hen­way,
      Ques­tion­ing our purpose…is not always easy. Because it can cer­tainly bring us to some places where we “see” we’re not liv­ing fully in align­ment with our deeper self (I know I’ve been in this place, and have moments where con­tin­ues to come up).

      That’s the beauty of all of this, though — it’s as you say — you move closer to fully con­nect­ing with your true peak. And the gifts that come from this place…they hold spe­cial meaning.…

  5. Dear­est and Sweet­est Lance!! I am right now..ok just before I started typ­ing this com­ment, did a happy dance..cause Yaahooo…you are back! I’ve missed your energy here so much.…. So firstly a huge warm wel­come back.
    As for the emerging…oh aren’t we all on the same path, just in dif­fer­ent places? I am happy you took the time to look within, see, hear and under­stand the REAL you. Its a beau­ti­ful becoming…and its shows in all the the sub­tle addi­tions I see here on your site. I see the coach­ing buttons..and am so glad you have taken this step. You are brilliant..and you can make us all bril­liant with you :)
    May you keep emerging…emerging to that high­est peak, and I am so so so happy to be with you on this jour­ney, even if only in spirit :)
    Many more happy, shiny col­or­ful rain­bows await thee…
    Much love always,
    Z~
    Zeenat{Positive Provocations}´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..I Can­not Detach MyselfMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Won­der­ful Zeenat,
      .…I’m danc­ing with you!!! Yahoo!!!!!

      This time away, it has really been so good for my soul. And as strange as it felt to take this break, as soon as I fully com­mit­ted to it…it was as if a load was lifted off of my shoul­ders. (and I knew, instantly, that this deci­sion was spo­ken from my heart…)

      The biggest thing for me has been this idea that I DO emerge, and when I fol­low the emerg­ing voice in my heart…it is all good and right (no mat­ter what happens).

      Rain­bows!! Rain­bows to you, won­der­ful, bright, shiny, rainbow-filled soul!

      Love you…always,
      Lance

  6. Dear­est Lance,

    I’m so happy you are back! I’ve missed your surges of pos­i­tive energy laugh­ter, and joy, but also respected your need to retreat. And what a pro­found retreat it has clearly been.

    Isn’t this the most impor­tant ques­tion in life? “Why am I doing this?” One that we need to ask again and again? I cer­tainly ask this myself from time to time.

    You have so much courage to go within and dance with this cru­cial ques­tion. Thank you for shar­ing your jour­ney with us. May we all con­tinue emerg­ing.
    San­dra / Always Well Within´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..1 in 3 Gluten Sen­si­tive Could It Be YouMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      San­dra,
      {big smiles and big hugs}
      Such an impor­tant life ques­tion — the “why” of doing what we do. And one that is so worth ask­ing, not just once, but many times through­out our lifetime.

      San­dra, your pres­ence here is a gift. And that’s you, shar­ing so authen­ti­cally, for car­ing, and for loving.

      With love,
      Lance

  7. Evan says:

    What I’m explor­ing is: How do I make a good income doing what I love?

    What’s emerg­ing is get­ting to know my peo­ple and find­ing what com­mu­ni­cates, learn­ing what they are inter­ested in and so on.

    • Lance says:

      Evan,
      It’s great hav­ing you here!

      The inter­sec­tion of doing what you love, and mak­ing that sustainable…I hear you loud and clear! In fact, it’s some­thing I’ve been dig­ging more deeply into, myself.

      And I believe you are right on — it starts with mean­ing­ful con­nec­tions with oth­ers — and then cre­at­ing some­thing that is valu­able (with care) for these peo­ple (and their friends).

      Best of luck…and if there’s any­thing I can do to sup­port you on your jour­ney, just let me know.

  8. Lynn says:

    Lance! So good to see you — I’m glad the sab­bat­i­cal has given you time to reflect and grow. I love the Jun­gle of Life logo art­work — beau­ti­ful and lyrical.

    I’m in my jour­ney and per­haps spin­ning my wheels a bit, but blog­ging has brought much pos­i­tiv­ity to my life and so I con­tinue.
    Lynn´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Entrance– clip­pings and build­ing a homeMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Lynn,
      So good to see YOU!!!

      This time away really has been so mean­ing­ful to me…and so worth it.

      Thanks (re: the art­work) — I have been tweak­ing a few things here (and that’s been a lot of fun, too!).

      The “spin­ning of the wheels”…maybe it’s some­thing that hap­pens to all of us from time to time (it does for me). These can really be pos­i­tive moments, too — when we rec­og­nize this (at a deeper level), which can lead us to some pretty won­der­ful places.…

      (and I agree whole­heart­edly — blog­ging truly has been such a pos­i­tive force in my life, too…) (and it’s because of amaz­ing people…like you…)

  9. Joy says:

    Lance,
    So beauty filled..each and every word and thought..and you hon­ored your words and thoughts by hon­or­ing the nat­ural ebb and flow of life..of cre­at­ing!
    When you ask why do we do this? Love..the Answer is always love. And, yes, love some­times seeks a safe zone to rest, reju­ve­nate, refresh, espe­cially because what you share like so many oth­ers is straight from the heart, you are shar­ing a piece of your self..so it is imper­a­tive to take time to re-member your self. And, yes, love evolves, then emerges able to trans­form all it touches–you, me, every­one…
    So, thank you for hav­ing the faith, strength, courage to honor all that has been pre­sented to you, within you..and thank you for con­tin­u­ing to share as openly and lov­ingly as you do!
    Yay..Lance is back:)
    Joy´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Pas­sion Series– All is a Miracle!My Profile

    • Lance says:

      Joy,
      So, so won­der­ful to see you here this morn­ing! {big hugs}

      At our core…love IS it. So then, it’s in con­nect­ing to what brings us most mean­ing in our life…and love will flow from that space. Joy, you shine what love is truly all about…and what a gift that is to the world…to me…

      …and it is really good to be back…

  10. Lance,
    I didn’t know I was doing it until I got to the end, but when you said you were back, my breath came woosh­ing out in a huge tum­ble from being held so tightly in my lungs.

    I think I was actu­ally scared. Scared that we could loose such an impor­tant part of our com­mu­nity, a man who keeps us grounded in the impor­tant things. The very impor­tant WHY.

    There have been many times dur­ing your sab­bat­i­cal that I have been SO tempted to email or con­tact you and say NO!!! Don’t LEAVE!!! But held back, out of respect for the process and under­stand­ing of what you are sub­mit­ting to. It was truly my own self­ish­ness that wanted you right here, where I could always find you, like a secu­rity blan­ket to com­fort and support.

    You are brave to to walk through the desert for the forty days and forty nights (metaphor­i­cally) of self reflec­tion that it takes to find your­self. Not many men­tors are will­ing to sub­mit to it them­selves. The mir­ror is not always our friend, but it will always guide our path. You were will­ing to take the deep hard look and I want to tell you how much I respect that.

    Well done, wel­come back.

    Hugs.

    • Lance says:

      Wendi,
      I want to start this just by say­ing you deeply mean­ing­ful and touch­ing your com­ment is to me. (thank you, very deeply…for the words you have shared here today)

      And it’s inter­est­ing that you bring up the words “secu­rity blan­ket”, as this place has come to feel that way for me, too. So, in a way — it was me, step­ping away from that secu­rity blan­ket. And the good from this has been that — while this space here con­tin­ues on now — it has also helped me to gain more per­sonal insight into what this has all meant, what this con­tin­ues to mean, and where this all goes from here. So, I’m think­ing about some fur­ther changes — ones that con­tinue to pro­vide secu­rity, com­mu­nity, and deep shar­ing — while also cre­at­ing an extra sense of peace for me.

      And while I hadn’t really cor­re­lated all of this tim­ing to Lent, what a beau­ti­ful way to look at this (and I thank you, once again, for this…which is mak­ing me think even more deeply about what this has meant for me).

      Wendi…you are such a gift in my life, and it is an honor to have you here today.

      Hugs and big, big love…
      Lance

  11. Holly says:

    Lance, read­ing your return­ing mes­sage has been sur­pris­ingly emo­tional for me. I won­dered how many oth­ers welled up with emo­tion — some of “our fam­ily” here already sug­gested that. I believe you speak clearly on behalf of the human expe­ri­ence such that we relate and go to yet another level within.
    Your TS Eliot quote meant more today than before because of your post. Return­ing to a child­like state is enlight­en­ment. You accom­plish that here. It’s putting mind, body, emo­tions, and Spirit in align­ment.
    Thanks, dear Lance — Wel­come back!
    Holly
    “We shall not cease from explo­ration
    And the end of all our explor­ing
    Will be to arrive where we started
    And know the place for the first time.”
    ~ T.S. Eliot

    • Lance says:

      Holly,
      Your words here today…they are so mean­ing­ful to me.

      It all reminds me of how deeply con­nected we are, and what this human expe­ri­ence is all about…the con­nec­tion with oth­ers, the being in com­mu­nion on this journey.…

      The T.S. Elliot quote came to me instantly, as I began to write this arti­cle. And it did, because it just felt so real, so per­sonal, so “understood”…in that moment.

      Holly, your pres­ence in my life con­tin­ues to touch me deeply. I sup­pose that is made even stronger by the time we spent together…in the human con­nec­tion that was made from a deeper inside place, and then out into the more out­wardly place from there. I’m so, so grate­ful for you…

      With love,
      Lance

  12. Evelyn Lim says:

    Hi Lance, it’s great that you’re back and well! I think what you’ve gone through is pretty nor­mal. Some­times, we have been so busy on the thread­mill that we for­get to ask our­selves why we are doing all that sprint­ing. It’s impor­tant to have aware­ness on what our higher intent is. Oth­er­wise, we’d just get caught up in the doing and not the being.

    I look for­ward to the con­tin­ued blos­som­ing of this space! Looks like the com­mu­nity can­not wait for you to get started :-) Wel­come back!

    With love,
    Eve­lyn
    Eve­lyn Lim´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Self Love Story– Lessons From the HeartMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Eve­lyn,
      …the ebb and flow of life…

      And that’s it — we can become caught up in the doing (and not that doing, per se, is bad) with­out a deeper under­stand­ing (and aware­ness) of our being. When these are in align­ment, though, what a beau­ti­ful place to come from…

      Eve­lyn, thank you…for today, and for always.…for the friend­ship you have so won­der­fully shared with me.

      Love and big hugs,
      Lance

  13. Katie says:

    Wel­come back Lance. Lovely to read your words and see into your soul.
    Katie´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Do You Have GritMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Katie,
      Thank you so much for being here. And know that you have been such a source of inspi­ra­tion and a guid­ing light for me.

      Much love,
      Lance

  14. Hearty wel­come back to the blo­gos­phere, Lance! It’s won­der­ful to dis­cover that your sab­bat­i­cal is yield­ing more beau­ti­ful mes­sages on the Jun­gle tele­graph :-D
    Naomi Estment´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Move over BFF– we’re talk­ing MBFMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Naomi,
      So, so won­der­ful to “see” you here today!!

      It’s great to be back…and to have you here and shar­ing your friendship…

  15. Audra Krell says:

    Hi Lance, great to see you here again!
    Love your ques­tion about aban­don­ing some­thing impor­tant to us, as you know I’m the aban­don­ment woman! I’m very pas­sion­ate about learn­ing to live and love with aban­don and some­times that means aban­don­ing some­thing that is deeply mean­ing­ful. I emerge only when I’m in the cen­ter of God’s will, He has some many good things planned for me and when I go my own way, I end up shut down in the fetal posi­tion emo­tion­ally, won­der­ing where it all went wrong. But when I do what He is ask­ing me to do and live like He wants me to live.…then I’m truly liv­ing and lov­ing oth­ers with aban­don.
    Audra Krell´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..The Pitcher WhispererMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Audra,
      Thank YOU!!!! And…it’s great to have you here today!

      Ah…abandonment — I know that’s a word that has spe­cial mean­ing to you.

      And that’s exactly it — what am I will­ing to aban­don (even if it has mean­ing to me) to move into some­thing even more spe­cial and with more mean­ing? When we come from the cen­ter of our being (a place in which I believe that God resides) we touch upon this place of deeper mean­ing (and the Uni­verse is there to sup­port us).

      So, Audra, know that your words com­ple­ment all the thoughts I’ve been hav­ing, and it’s so good to hear them spo­ken from you…with the con­vic­tion I know they hold.

      Peace,
      Lance

  16. DareToBecome says:

    Wel­come back! You have been greatly missed here.
    DareToBecome´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Replac­ing Fear With FunMy Profile

  17. Hilary says:

    Hello … Lance … well well well .… wel­come back — isn’t it amaz­ing .. just read­ing the list of com­menters and see every­one here in the same place — it’s almost as though they’ve been wait­ing for you with their com­ments tucked up their sleeves … bril­liant news.

    I love the new look .. I’ll be around and scan­ning .. just being a part of the Lance team .. is good news for me .. cheers and so good to see you .. Happy Easter .. and choccy eggs ..

    See you soon .. Hilary
    Hilary´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Q is for Quern-Stone — that is what Q is for My Profile

    • Lance says:

      Hilary,
      Thanks so much…it’s great to be back!

      And thank you, as well, about the new look around here — I believe it fits really well with the mes­sage that I hope I’m con­vey­ing in the words I share.

      And…Hilary…it’s super great hav­ing you as part of the team!! Woohoo!!

      Happy Easter…and jelly beans!
      Lance

  18. Angel says:

    Lance!
    The world missed you. Im try­ing to emerge but I don’t have a plan just doing what feels right until it feels wrong.
    Angel´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Full Body Work­out x 5My Profile

    • Lance says:

      Angel!!
      While not every­one would agree, I’m sure…I really believe you are on a good path. Doing what feels right…until it doesn’t any­more — and then really real­iz­ing this — how won­der­ful!! Really. I *love* this that you have shared…

  19. Lance!

    Delighted to see you out here. And it’s won­der­ful to know that you’ve cre­ated the space in your life to ask your­self the impor­tant ques­tions. The best part of it all is that you paid atten­tion to your gut, to that “inner know­ing” that always has the answer to what you need. Kudos to you!

    Bless­ings to you as the emerg­ing con­tin­ues to unfold. Reminds me of a but­ter­fly and how they emerge in their own per­fect tim­ing. I wrote a blog post on that once because but­ter­flies (and all of nature) is such a great teacher for us.

    Keep on enjoy­ing life and shin­ing your light.

    Peace!
    Michelle @ Fol­low­ing Your Joy´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Does Your ‘Stuff’ Have a Hold On YouMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Michelle,
      And I.…am delighted to see you here, also!

      As hard as this idea was to “step away”…it also became so crys­tal clear that it was the right thing for me, the moment I com­mit­ted to it. And — I was really sur­prised at that feel­ing — the feel­ing of how I could really just tell this was so, so right. And…I guess that is the “really lis­ten­ing to your gut” part!

      Yes, nature is really such a “life les­son” producer…if we really notice all of it (or even small parts…like the beau­ti­ful butterfly).

      I WILL keep shin­ing my light…and it shines brighter because YOU are here, shin­ing your light, too..

      Peace and love,
      Lance

  20. Wel­come back & maybe one day you will fig­ure out the “why” behind the need for a sab­bat­i­cal but I am sure it is all good no mat­ter what! :-)

    I have been rethink­ing as well.… will see where it takes me but some hard think­ing needs to be done. Not sure blog­ging is the way for me but time will tell…
    Jody — Fit at 53´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Gatorade G Series FIT Work­out ProductsMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Jody,
      Thanks!!

      You know, I do believe I know the “why” behind the sab­bat­i­cal. For me, this was really about tak­ing this time to re-focus. And to do this, with­out the dis­trac­tions that every­day life (and the blog had def­i­nitely become every­day life!) was cre­at­ing. So, by paus­ing here in this space, I freed myself from this space — giv­ing me a clearer pic­ture of who I am, and why I’m here.

      Jody, should you decide to step away from blog­ging — know that you are sup­ported. And I do encour­age you to really ask your­self what your “why” is in doing this. Know also that I take so much from all that you share. You are a source of ideas, or help­ing me to chal­lenge myself, and of inspir­ing me to really keep my fit­ness rou­tine active. (and I thank you, very deeply, for that)

  21. Adrenalynn says:

    Lance, I breathe eas­ier because you live. Really! Wel­come back, I’ve missed your voice. I hope your sab­bat­i­cal has been every­thing you needed and wanted!
    Adrenalynn´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Help me help youMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Lynn,
      Your first sentence…it reaches to my soul in a way that’s hard to describe. Just know that this means so, so much to me — as does your pres­ence here.

      These past cou­ple of months have been refresh­ing and renew­ing. Know­ing you are out there is all of that, also…

      Love and hugs,
      Lance

  22. Jean Burman says:

    Hi Lance :-)

    Can’t tell you how lovely it is to have you back. But I under­stand the pause. And I under­stand the search. In fact… I under­stand implic­itly every word you’ve spo­ken here.

    My emer­gence has been ongo­ing as you know… and I know you under­stand. But this is not about me… it’s about you and the need for all of us to do what you have done. To stop. To pause. And to ask the big ques­tion why.

    Why am I doing this? What does it mean… for me… and the world? It IS that big. And it’s impor­tant for us to get it right for our­selves and every­one else. To be true to our­selves is our only real call­ing here. We need to find that truth.

    So glad you took the time… even though we missed you. Thanks so much for being here.

    So happy you’re back!

    Jean x
    Jean Burman´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Paint­ing The Light and find­ing pas­sion in the processMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Jean!!
      Lovely…is YOU…being here! (well, really — lovely is just you, being you…and I’m just super happy you chose to spend some of that time here!)

      Mmmm…yes, I under­stand. And that’s it — it’s about each of us find­ing our own answers to the “why’s” of what we do. It is that big because this is your life (just like my life…it is my life). How are we choos­ing to spend our moments…the moments that are our lives?

      Jean. You are such a gift to me. Know that I am deeply grate­ful for your pres­ence in my life…so, so grateful…

      Much love to you,
      Lance
      xxoo

  23. Hi Lance,
    Great post! I do some­times feel like that ham­ster on the wheel… esp. at this time of the year as school (I“m a teacher and mother) draws to a close. Emerg­ing is a won­der­ful word. We teach­ers of young chil­dren are always talk­ing about but­ter­flies in the spring and that word is always com­ing up. And I love your quotes, exp. Emerson’s. Great inspi­ra­tion!
    Thanks!
    Betsy

    • Lance says:

      Hi Betsy,
      First off…thank you so much for the time you give to the future of our world (both as a mother and a teacher).

      Being that “ham­ster on the wheel”.…I sup­pose it’s about rec­og­niz­ing that when it begins to hap­pen (aware­ness) and then choos­ing what to do . I wish you much inter­nal peace…as this school year fin­ishes up…

      Thank you so, so much for being here!

  24. Lance,

    It’s great to have you, your voice and spirit back –we missed you!

    Alex

    • Lance says:

      Alex,
      It’s great to be back — and that’s made even more mean­ing­ful to me by you (and oth­ers) who have openly wel­comed me back. Thank you!!

  25. rob white says:

    It’s great to have you pos­i­tive pres­ence around, Lance. You have the divine right to change your mind … and if that doesn’t feel right, change it again…
    rob white´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..The Smartest Task You Can Take OnMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Rob,
      Thanks, my friend!

      This is all part of that journey…the jour­ney toward my own true peak. And like the words of Robert Frost, roads may diverge…and I’m okay with all of that. (as we all can be…)

  26. Natalia says:

    Lance! I’ve missed you! It’s so nice to see you back.

    I have been strug­gling with pur­pose for a while now. I’m won­der­ing if the more I look for it, the more elu­sive it is. I think the key is to sit still and lis­ten! Not my strong suit. Per­haps because it does make me feel too vul­ner­a­ble. Like a sit­ting duck, so to speak! Vul­ner­a­ble is not a strong suit for me, grow­ing up in the home I did, it was more about duck and cover, never let em see you sweat or cry. Hold those cards tight to your vest.

    I have felt very sad lately because I don’t know my pur­pose, if I have a pur­pose. Your words make me real­ize that being uncom­fort­able and vul­ner­a­ble, quiet and still, are parts of this jour­ney. For me uncom­fort­able parts, but parts none the less!

    Thank you so much for shar­ing your thoughts!

    I have missed you my friend!
    xo
    Nat
    Natalia´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Life with­out a carMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Natalia!
      So, so great to see you here!!

      This idea of find­ing our pur­pose, it’s one that is ever-evolving, just as we are. And there can def­i­nitely be some fear and vul­ner­a­bil­ity around liv­ing from that place of deeper mean­ing (I know!). For me, the thought that can some­times hold me back is that “what if I get to this place that feels right, and I’m sucky, or peo­ple ridicule me, or I flop big time”. What I’m real­iz­ing, though, is that it’s me who will likely remem­ber all of this, not oth­ers. And, if I flop…I see it as a moment of learn­ing. (this has def­i­nitely been a process to get to this stage…and still con­tin­ues to be…).

      Natalia, I just want you to know — I think what you have shared here speaks vol­umes to who you are, and to who you are as a per­son. And all of these things — even the moments that can feel a bit sad — they all are part of your jour­ney (and there is good in all of that).

      It is really so won­der­ful hav­ing you here, and for hav­ing you share so openly.

      Love and hugs,
      Lance

  27. suzen says:

    Hey there Lance! Great to see you back on, refreshed, and rollin’ on! I think tak­ing breaks from our rou­tines (and some­times self-inflicted stres­sors) is a great idea. It’s kind of like a nice spring clean­ing of habits and brain clut­ter. So wel­come back!
    Hugs
    suZen

    • Lance says:

      Suzen!!
      Hi!!!

      It’s great to be “rollin’ on”!!

      The spring clean­ing has been so refresh­ing for me — and, in a way, I have done this both men­tally and physically…all in such good ways.

      Great to have you here!!

      Big hugs!
      Lance

  28. Chris Barba says:

    GREAT post Lance! My safety zones are just that. The box that is my frame of ref­er­ence. What I fall back on and what keeps the ham­ster wheel spin­ning. Is it what I per­ceive I need for my days to have any mean­ing, because it is all I know.

    It becomes easy to become com­fort­able in the answers of yes­ter­day, but in order to reach new, extra­or­di­nary out­comes, we must be will­ing to step out of cer­tainty and into the unknown. And so explore we must!

    Cheers!
    Chris Barba´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Men­tal SlaveryMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Chris,
      Thanks!!

      Yes, there’s this ele­ment of explo­ration — in all the forms that takes. From the phys­i­cal, to the men­tal and spiritual…all of these forms of explor­ing (and step­ping out of our com­fort zones) bring such great rewards. And the rewards…the inter­nal rewards we reap…help to move us to the next plane in our life journey…

      Thanks so much for being here!

  29. Julie Ellis says:

    Hi Lance!

    It’s great to have you back! Although, while you were away, your {energy} was still felt here, as I read past posts. I was enlightened!

    Todays post is filled with so much to think about.…
    I am always exploring…learning…commitment is the tough­est step. But I believe that we each must do what feels right for us. We may fail, and there may be bet­ter ways, but we will find our way, our unique path, through our explor­ing. We each emerge in our own way and in our own time.

    We each have our own {light}, our dif­fer­ent gifts & tal­ents to share. We must rec­og­nize & honor the light in oth­ers as well as our own. Lance, you are light­ing the way! Lets shine together on this jour­ney, my friend.

    Here is a huge wel­come back {HUG!}
    Much love,
    Julie

    • Lance says:

      Hi Julie!!

      {I’m smil­ing} It’s so, so won­der­ful hav­ing you here…

      Com­mit­ting to something…that is a chal­leng­ing step. And it is, because what if it doesn’t go as you expect? Still, there is so much we get from mak­ing these com­mit­ments, and then fol­low­ing through (what­ever that means for each of us).

      Julie, your amaz­ing and beau­ti­ful light shines so brightly in my life…and what an honor it is to have you here, and to call you friend.

      Yes, let’s shine together!!

      Big, big hugs and lots of love,
      Lance
      xoxo

  30. Hi Lance,
    What a life chang­ing two months. I’m happy your back and all is well in the blog­ging world. Wise peo­ple know when to step out and went to step within. But that doesn’t sur­prise me about you!
    Tess The Bold Life´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Tips to Save Money On Gas and Take Your Power BackMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Tess!!
      Yes, these two months have been life chang­ing. I think a lot of that was inter­nal changes…and just how I view every­thing that I do. Where that takes me next, I’m not fully sure. What I do know, though, is that this is the “right” place for me to be…

      So, so great hav­ing you here, dear friend…

      Much love,
      Lance

  31. He’s back, and this feels really, really right! Lance, your story is the all of our sto­ries. I think there is an energy danc­ing about, which is ask­ing all of us to really look at who and what we are, why we do what we do, and come up with the one answer: because to be / do / live… is to love. Even when what we’re doing or how we’re doing it don’t look like love, love is ever present. I read some­where that God doesn’t make mis­takes (so you, me, them? all are PERFECT exactly as is… no changes required). I also read that we know when we’ve accom­plished our mis­sions here on earth: it’s called death. Until then, we still have mean­ing, pur­pose, love to spread.

    I’m part of your vol­un­teer army, Lance, to con­tinue explor­ing, laugh­ing, lov­ing and shar­ing. YOU, my friend, are AWESOME!
    Megan “Joy­Girl!” Bord´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..One-Day Heal­ing Work­shop w– Simon Hay and Oneonta WellnessMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Ms. Joy­girl!!!!
      Guess what??? I am all filled with joy right now…because I’m read­ing your won­der­ful thoughts! (you make me smile!)

      Megan, I want you to know, too — that you helped make these last cou­ple of months pos­si­ble. You have, because I know that you have been there (maybe about a year ago) — where you felt the pull to stop. And in that, I have just wit­nessed you soar­ing to new heights, and con­tin­u­ing to flow with deep love. All of that, Megan, was so good for me to think about — as I’ve been going through this myself. YOU are a leader in this brigade of coura­geously step­ping away…and mov­ing more deeply into you. (thank you, so so much…)

      And since we’re still alive…our mis­sion (and our love) here on this earth continues!

      By the way…I’m declar­ing you as cap­tain of the army! Let’s con­tinue laugh­ing, liv­ing, lov­ing, and explor­ing together!

      Big, big hugs…
      Lance
      xoxo

  32. Hi Lance,

    Yes, it’s impor­tant to find what I call “your fear­less why.” It’s some­thing I encour­age my design clients to find before we embark on any kind of mar­ket­ing mate­ri­als. I, too, was feel­ing a bit out of sync with myself until I spent sev­eral months find­ing my own why, my own life theme. We all have one if we take the time to see that under­ly­ing pat­tern that weaves through our entire lives begin­ning in the child­hood years.

    Our school­ing sys­tem sup­presses that unique why to get us ready to be cor­po­rate slogs or gov­ern­men­tal slogs or shop­ping slogs. Alive, why-filled peo­ple are harder to keep in line. Watch any above ground sub­way car go by and you’ll see slog­dom in action.

    Just recently I real­ized that school/work serves to break our wild spir­its, like you take a beau­ti­ful stal­lion and “break” him so you can own him. Inside though, down deep the wild­ness remains.

    I fought the folks try­ing to break my spirit and only got half “trained.” Then I real­ized I’d help put the bit into my own mouth and spit it out! I went back to my wilder, less tamed self. It feels right. I believe we are all way too obe­di­ent and need to dis­obey more to be true to our wild selves.

    Best wishes for find­ing your fear­less why … G.
    Giuli­etta Nardone´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Walk­ing Ten Miles in Some­one Else’s ShoesMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Giuli­etta,
      The “fear­less why”…mmm…I love that!

      And that’s it…it’s in con­sciously tak­ing the time to get to know our­selves. And in doing that, we will see our­selves as for the first time (and how we have always been).

      Slog­dom? Is that a word? If it’s not — then I think you’ve invented a very awe­some word to describe this life where we put our­selves on autopi­lot and go through our days…and for what?

      Here’s to let­ting the wild within us out!

      And…your “dis­obey­ing” ways…you know what?? That makes me want to con­nect even more with you!! Let’s keep in touch…who knows…maybe there’s a way we can cause a ruckus together!! (and I’m seri­ous about that!).

      Great, great, great hav­ing you here!

  33. Hi Lance,
    I’m totally with you about explor­ing the why of blog­ging. I know the rea­sons I started are dif­fer­ent from the rea­sons I con­tinue.…
    I like the human con­nec­tion — as crazy as it sounds since we are com­mu­ni­cat­ing through tech­nol­ogy and most of us have never met. I also think the com­ments we receive help us feel val­ued and the posts we read help us get to know the blog­ger. It’s a tech­no­log­i­cal con­ver­sa­tion and an inter­ac­tion we crave as social ani­mals. I can eas­ily spot posts that are lack “heart” and have been writ­ten merely to cre­ate con­tent in order to mar­ket the blog­ger. I’m inter­ested in read­ing posts that res­onate with my soul — like your post has done today Lance. Wel­come back!
    Angela Artemis´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..The Power of Per­se­ver­ance– A Mes­sage of HopeMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Hi Angela,
      Thanks — it’s great to be back!

      Yes, that human con­nec­tion — that’s some­thing that is so, so mean­ing­ful about being here in this space for me, too (and for the vis­its to other sites, like yours). We con­nect, I believe, at a deeper level. So, if and when those con­nec­tions move from this space to in-person — it’s like meet­ing a friend you know so well (which is so, so wonderful).

      That “why”…perhaps it will be an ongo­ing ques­tion for each of us as our jour­neys continue.

      Know that it is so good hav­ing you here, and for your friend­ship and support…

  34. Stacey says:

    I can SO related to this blog post. I have been emerging…and evolv­ing. Prior to chang­ing my blog’s name, my ini­tial thought was to go on a 3 month blog­ging sabbatical…to just be and think. Instead, I changed my blog, let go of the “make believe” pres­sure, and decided to do what I used to do years ago, which is to sim­ply write for ME.

    A ham­ster wheel? Hold­ing on to my unwanted safety zones? Yup. I here you. It’s an evolv­ing jun­gle of life and it’s so much bet­ter know­ing you too are going on your own jour­ney, right along side me.

    Thank you Lance, for shar­ing your jun­gle and your journey.

    ~ Stacey
    Stacey´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Mom Cave – A Space That’s All About You!My Profile

    • Lance says:

      Stacey,
      I *love* this…that you are doing “Evolv­ing Stacey” for you. And what a gift, I’m sure, this will be, as you con­tinue to emerge and evolve…just as you are…

      What’s so neat, is how we’ve been con­nected from near the begin­ning of our online endeav­ors. So, know­ing that we con­tinue this jour­ney together, Stacey, this is deeply mean­ing­ful to me.

      What­ever lies ahead…for you, for me…just know­ing you’re out there, it’s a gift…a gift I trea­sure very much.

  35. Lance, this post is such a gift!
    I would guess that we all go through moments in life when we feel we are on a ham­ster wheel. (I could be wrong, maybe there some peo­ple that are free from it). I’ve come to a sort of inner peace with life — and when I’m on a hamster-wheel I know it’s best if I don’t stay there too long.

    …a time to go deeper, a time to lis­ten, a time to be…” such a bril­liant choice to com­mit to ones process and be will­ing to pause for a moment and go within. A bril­liant and nec­es­sary thing to do.

    Thank you for this bril­liant post !
    Aileen | Kaizen Vision´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Stum­ble… Fall… Breathe…My Profile

    • Lance says:

      Aileen,
      Thank you so much for these won­der­ful words you’ve shared.

      And the key word in all of this — the word “com­mit”. Because it’s easy to say these things — and another alto­gether to act. So — my action — to pause (which, fun­nily, doesn’t seem like much of an action as I type this!) — pro­vided a new level of clar­ity for me. And that…that is so mean­ing­ful to me as I resume this journey…with new eyes…

      Thank you for being here and for the gift of your friendship.

  36. I’ve been exper­i­ment­ing in ways to emerge lately. Through prayer, med­i­ta­tion, being myself — and a myr­iad of other ways. I’ve come to real­ize that it’s all about accept­ing who I am, and let­ting my inner tal­ents come to fruition.

    I like what’s been writ­ten above. Com­mit. Com­mit to being bet­ter, and choos­ing to make a dif­fer­ence in your life. If you make that your #1 pri­or­ity — you WILL go far in every­thing.
    Chris­t­ian Hollingsworth´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..If Walt Dis­ney had a blog…My Profile

    • Lance says:

      Chris­t­ian,
      You sounds like you are in a great place in your life right now — accept­ing YOU and see­ing your­self from the inside out.

      I’ve found med­i­ta­tion, as well, to be so ben­e­fi­cial in this whole jour­ney — and in my really know­ing me.

      Wish­ing you well on this path you are on.

      And…it’s great to “meet” you here in this space!

      Peace,
      Lance

  37. Lance, thanks for mod­el­ing the courage to lis­ten to your intu­ition and to take the Sab­bat­i­cal. I love the new blog look and energy that has emerged from your tak­ing the time to ‘sharpen the saw.’ I look for­ward to all the new things that will con­tinue to emerge from your time off :)
    Steve-Personal Suc­cess Factors´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..Here’s Your Per­sonal Devel­op­ment Plan for 2011 And BeyondMy Profile

    • Lance says:

      Steve,
      This sab­bat­i­cal was so, so good for me — and now that I’m back, I feel refreshed and renewed.

      I did make some cos­metic changes to the blog dur­ing this break, so thanks for notic­ing them, too!

      Hope all is well with you, and I look for­ward to our con­tin­ued friendship.

  38. Hi there, mate. Thanks a lot for shar­ing this. A com­mit­ment, is truly some­thing that we need to keep on hold­ing onto i think. Any­way, this is one inspir­ing story. Great share!
    Andrew Walker´s Last Fab­u­lous Post ..New Pub­lic Hotel in ChicagoMy Profile

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