Note: This is part of a series where I feature people who are on their true peak journey. If you're interested in sharing your story, please contact me.
“A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step.” ~ Lao Tzu
Today our guest is Christian Hollingsworth, from Smart Boy Designs. Christian writes about blogging and life at his site, and has created an active community through the stories he weaves.
Below Christian shares a part his story, as he has continues his true peak journey.
Please read and enjoy…
I’m going to put it bluntly, straightforward from the beginning.
I found my true peak by forgiving myself and understanding that I make mistakes.
The past couple of months have been a whirlwind of learning for me. A time to ponder and consider the great questions of life. For a year I was serving as a service missionary in Colorado and then November of 2010 I got incredibly ill. At first it was thought to be the flu, but I never got better. Heart problems, stomach issues, joint pain and more. At this point, over seven months of being ill, the doctors still don’t know what is wrong.
It’s been during this time that I’ve grown the most.
Let’s Go Back a Little Bit
I feel like I’ve had a blessed life. A life full of opportunity and kindness given to me. Brought into my life my forces unbeknownst to me. Life has been handed to me – and I’ve always had no excuse (in my mind) to be my very best.
In short, I have always been my own worst enemy and critic.
Whether it’s a simple drawing or essay, I’ve always been the one to judge myself. The one to say I haven’t done my best. That little voice who distills in my mind – bringing the negativity. Do you ever feel that way? Do you ever feel like you’re the toughest person in the universe, on your own work and output? I often did, and still do sometimes.
I Choose to be Positive.
In order to fight it, I had to understand and firmly believe in a simple truth.
Negativity is not my natural spirit.
That’s not how I’m supposed to be. That’s not who I am. Those feelings are and were only the feelings of the negativity we face on a daily basis – that creeps in from the world.
From our youth we are often positive. We’re going to climb the highest mountains and be the next astronaut on the moon. We’re going to accomplish everything and take others with us. Then the world, people and our own selves start to voice their own opinion. They tell us it’s not possible, we can’t make it, and what we’re bringing to the table isn’t enough.
Don’t believe them.
My True Peak
Let’s go back to my original thoughts. Being ill.
It’s been during this time that I’ve been humbled to the core. I’ve been brought down to a tremendous low. It’s often during these times that we rise, and make something great out of the dust.
From being ill I’ve reached my True Peak – because I am quicker to forgive myself. I’ve come to understand that I will make mistakes, difficulty will arise – and that I have the power within to overcome.
That’s the true peak. That’s the peak we each face every day. The mountain we climb.
We’re going to make mistakes – but we’re also going to reach the peak, and summit.
It’s the happy message. The one we should be proud of.
I don’t know that I’ll ever fully reach my True Peak in this life, but do know that I reach smaller, less pronounced peaks each and every day. I’m still young, and have so much to learn.
I’ve got my backpack, filled with some tools of life – and I expect it’s going to be an interesting climb.